Today has been about resetting, re-evaluating and planning for the next part of the year. I've had a rough run recently in terms of work being declined for publication and other ventures not working out as planned. This gets me down, and makes me question why I bother, whether I should just admit defeat and focus on gardening. I won't, of course, I love writing and I love having written. I just need to hone where I give my attention.
The biggest challenge is patience. I accept that I have about a third of the capacity of many people. Unfortunately I still want to be able to do all of the work despite this reduced capacity. This morning has been about looking at where I can cut back activity so I can focus my efforts more effectively - the plan is formulating and I'm hopeful it will have better results.
I've been a bit scattered since my Dad died Christmas 2022. His death brought new roles that aren't my natural skills but appear to be the natural order of things and my energy and effort has to be used to deal with all matters that arise with a death. This sense of scatter has spilled into my work and I know I've not had a strong sense of what I want to work on. Instead, I've had a real feeling of panic, of time running out and if I'm going to do anything good I need to do it now!
What I actually need to do is reassess my goals and get a plan to work towards just one of them. I'm usually pretty good at this but have floundered a little this year. It's only April, there's plenty of time and time is, after all, simply a man made construct…
The rest of the day is devoted to nourishment. I'm emotionally and physically depleted after a weekend of memorial, taking care of family as well as chocolate eggs and my mind is sore. I'm reading gentle books, working on a prompt from Notes from the Margin with
and gazing at my beautiful cat.What are your strategies for this kind of scatter? How do you focus?
See you on Friday!
Kathryn
Xx
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